Wednesday, September 2, 2009


I tied this bit of white thread from my scarf to remember the important things. Not like doing laundry, go to the store on time, figure out the routine of life in this new place; those are all things that are important on some scale and must be done, but those are not things I wish to remember when I glance at this string.
I need to remember...
~to settle down. Everything doesn't have to be done today, right this instant. I have time to figure out the rhythm of life without the risk of getting burned out.
~that sweet fellowship with my Lord will always come before today's "To Do" list.
~that I'm in Scotland! That it is a blessing just to be here around new faces, people who have the same mindset and are chasing after God alongside me.
~that I am redeemed. Redeemed. Redeemed. My sweet Jesus is in the business of redeeming his children. That my sins cannot follow me around and define me, for I have given them to God, and he has thrown them over his shoulder, forgiven, forgotten. He is my identity, not my sin.
~that comparison is dangerous and from the enemy. I am beautifully and wonderfully made, in the image of the God of the universe.
~that I am to love god with all my heart, all my soul, all my mind, and all my strength, and love others as myself. Not only in verse form, when I can recite the verse and even explain to you what it means, but to live it out intentionally in every action and every word. Every breath I take is for the glory of God, to love him and to let him shine through me.

I know there are many more, but these are just a few. I feel as if I have been putting so much pressure on myself since I got here, craving an itinerary so I can check off things and feel as if i am getting things done in a very tangible way. Not that there is anything wrong with that, but I am putting pressure on myself, because if I do not accomplish a certain amount, those around me and those at home will start to wonder why I am here, I will start to wonder why I am here. I am here for a reason, God has me here, in this moment in this place, for a reason. I am to be an open vessel, heart postured towards him, serving him, waiting on him, loving him and others just as he commanded us and just as he created us to.

So, little string, remember that.

1 comment:

Michael said...

You seem to have everything figured out. You know what you want to do and you're good at not taking the risk of burning yourself out.
And everyone thinks that your always making a difference, even if it feels like you're not. Everyone has faith in you!